Since our amazing Pomeranian dog Marley passed, I’ve not been the same person; I’ve been miserable. Marley was like our child and having her in our lives made life perfect, losing her put a hole in me that’s not fixable. Over the last few weeks I’ve been noticing that no matter what, nothing seemed to make me happy; I was smiling however it was just on the outside. I started to think that I was depressed, well it was pretty obvious something was wrong. I just really miss our dog and no matter what, the munchkins (Pugsley and Lilith) are not replacements and it’s hard to not think of Marley every time I see these two.
Marley was suffering from CKD, Chronic Kidney Disease. She fought hard through the years as it continued to get worse and she passed June 2nd, 2019. We were crushed beyond belief and at the time had just went through some really horrible things.
I think Marley Visited me in my dream
The other day for some reason I was just exhausted, not something normal, just really beat down; more than likely from stress and depression. I passed out dead a sleep and slept longer and better than I have in my life. I was having a dream and in that dream it was like I was awake, a normal day going through the motions. Pugsley was loving on me as I was going through the day to day routine, Lilith purring as she rubbed against me. I walked into our bedroom and Marley was on the bed laying on my pillow. I immediately jumped on the bed to give her some loving, I was so excited however also in shock that for some reason she was alive and in my bed.
I picked up Marley and walked into the office to show Annika and all of a sudden the office wasn’t there and I was just holding Marley while Pugsley and Lilith were staring at me from below. I walked outside to sit in the grass and spend time with Marley while Lilith and Pugsley also played with us. This was a dream that I never wanted to wake from. I started to wake many times in this dream and a few of them I fully woke to see Lilith or have Pugsley jumping on me for loving though each time I closed my eyes, Marley was still there. The dream felt as if she was there to calm me down. It’s as if she was telling me to love on the munchkins as we did her.
After a very long sleep while enjoying my time with Marley in my dream I woke happy. For some strange reason I’ve been at peace, relaxed and haven’t been stressed or depressed once since that happen 3 days ago. We love Marley and always will, she was something very special in our lives and will remain in our hearts til we’re gone and some. She had a wonderful personality, and it was never a dull moment around here. Sort of the same with Pugsley as he is always waiting for a hug or kiss, he will happily jump on you to get one. Lilith she comes running to me the moment I lay down on our bed, she is so lovable.
Life is absolutely wonderful. Have a wonderful day and thanks for reading. I will be riding my bike and remembering her memory all the time. 30+ mile bike ride tomorrow dedicated to Marley’s Memory.